23rd February

Not sure what happened to the last few days but we shall continue anyway.....

Impromtu drinks with John last night, really enjoyed myself..  Very tired yesterday but things going well at work.  A few low level anxieties but nothing that cant be sorted.  Drinks at lunch time with the boys also good fun.

Today I am grateful for:-

Fuze project going well
Nice to catch up with John
Always good to have beer with the boys
Sorted out my benefits
Nearly Payday

Feb 18

Got up extra early this morning and got everything done before I left for work. Pleased to be working out again. Will keep things going from now on. Looking forward to it having some outward signs in my life

Today I am grateful for

Kodi

Water back on this morning

Listening to Joyce

A good workout this morning

Leaving for work on time. 

Day 26

Bit of an up and down weekend but pushing hard to get to feeling positive again.  Put a new spreadsheet together and going to tick off each task as I do them each dday for the next few months.

Doing yoga each morning and started the Buff Dudes stuff again.  Thinking about starting to run again when the mornings are a bit brighter.  We will see

Good stuff with Kodi to try on the Firestick soon but that's pretty cool!!

Today I am grateful for:-

A peaceful Sunday
Messing about in the woods
Nice Sunday Dinner
Getting up early
Marking off toddays tasks

Day 24

After a huge row with the wife on Wednesday I was very low in the morning. Spoke to her during work and it softened things between us. 

Had a good laugh with the guys at work in the pub last night. Came home drunk but much happier. 

Got up early and messed about with our new Kindle Fire 

Today I am grateful for 

Being in a better mood today

It's Friday

Made my own lunch

Slept well 

Left for work at a good time

Day 22

Got up in the middle of the night so had a lie in this morning. In a bit of a bad mood that Monica didn't come to bed even on Valentines night but I guess it's ok

Didn't do any Miracle Morning stuff this morning and left for work very late. 

Today I am grateful for

Getting picked up at the station

Late night in front of the telly

Having a lie in

My Apple Watch

Fuze project going well. 

Day 22

Got up in the middle of the night so had a lie in this morning. In a bit of a bad mood that Monica didn't come to bed even on Valentines night but I guess it's ok

Didn't do any Miracle Morning stuff this morning and left for work very late. 

Today I am grateful for

Getting picked up at the station

Late night in front of the telly

Having a lie in

My Apple Watch

Fuze project going well. 

Day 21

Not much time this morning. Hung over and late for work.  

Today I am grateful for

Karen's friendship

My lovely wife

Good night out last night

My Apple Watch

Getting up early 

Day 20

Didn't find time yesterday to get this done. 

Wasn't a bad day though. 

Glad to get Fuze project t done and good beers out last night. 

Day 19

So let's start again!

Not done any Miracle Morning Tasks today.  Feeling quite low and my body is aching but I am looking forward to a day with my boy, going to the cinema with him today and I have positive plans to start saving some money each month and that will bring about its own confidence

So for today :-

Today I am grateful for

Getting back in the game
My lovely family
Our comfortable home
Getting the Fuze project completed
A weekend off of work

Day 18

Another bad day yesterday.  Some kind of flu and I spent most of the day in bed.  Shouting in the morning and short tempered before I finally gave up and went to bed.

A lot of sleep helped though and I am kind of angry with myself and I guess betting myself up about my behaviour.  In a way it is interesting that this Miracle Morning is one step forwards and two steps back for me.

The positive in this though is once you hit rock bottom the only way is up!

I need to find the motivation to get things back on track!!

Day 17

It has been a tough couple of days and although I feel tired and a little downhearted it has focused my attention on getting things back to a good place.  It has made me plan for next month when I plan to put back some of the daily tasks that I was doing even before I started the Miracle Morning.

The fact is that there is a great deal of good in my life and the anger and anxiety I feel is coming from within me not from my circumstances and therefore is within my control.

Although it is hard to get into healthy routines |I have seen previously the benefits in my life of doing these things and so need to get back to them.

Next month will also be about saving money and not wasting it so I have a clear objective in terms of what I need to do and this time I need to stay focused on my money otherwise things cannot improve in my finances.

Today I am grateful for

Fuze project going well
An early night
A calm house
The love of my wife
My wonderful children

Day 16

Yesterday was horrendous.  One bad thing seemed to happen after another and I ended up having a huge screaming match with my wife who now is hurt and distant because of it.  I discovered yesterday that my finances are in a horrendous mess and I have to be taking on additional costs because of problems with my teeth (another unattended problem)  I am feeling overwhelmed and not sure at all how I am going to get beyond these problems but I am clear that somehow I need to change things in my life and get back to a place where I feel confident and capable to live the life I truly deserve.

So again I reset things and feel like I am starting at day one again.

Today I am grateful for

Having the opportunity to start again
The ability to recommit
The ability to plan and change what needs to be changed
Having Gods help when I ask for it
The ability to change my perspective

Day 15

Another void day :(

Day 14

Another day missed.  

Day 14

I ended up getting to sleep quite late but woke up in good time this morning with a much greater intent.  I sorted out my workout area yesterday and did my first full workout since before Christmas.  I made my list of things I want to get each day by adding in some additional things in addition to the Miracle Morning tasks and got them all done before I got in the bath this morning.

Although I was quite grumpy yesterday I feel like a different person today.

Today I am grateful for

A fresh start
Having everything I need
The chance to be more healthy
Fuze Project going well
Getting everything done this morning

Day 13

Wasn't such a great day today. Can't really say why but have been very snappy today. My wife was really getting on my nerves and found her to be quite shouty to and although we didn't argue there were a few harsh exchanges between us. 

Felt quite tired most of today and spent a lot of it by myself which suited me really. I did a lot of YouTube videos today and listed a couple of things on EBay today which was good. So some good did come out of today. 

I feel a bit embarrassed and sorry for being so grumpy with the kids. They get the butt end of things sometimes which is a shame and leaves me feeling quite sad. 

Going to try a bit harder to get back into more positive habits as it does help a lot with my moods. 

Thankfully they are all quite forgiving and to be honest are used to my moods. I suppose we all have off days and take it out on those around us without really meaning to. 

Today I am grateful for

Spending time with mum yesterday

Having my YouTube channel

Having forgiving kids and wife

Finding positive things even on a bad day

A fresh start tomorrow 

Day 12

After missing yesterday it was more of a challenge to knuckle down and get this done. 

In the end I didn't get time until the early afternoon before I could slip away upstairs and do my meditation and visualisation. Didn't quite manage my affirmations today and might need t get time to do any reading but might get some time as I go to bed

Today I am grateful for:-

The weekend

Getting in well with the wife

Things going well at work

My YouTube channel

New CB radios to review

Day 11

I missed this day

I had a work party the night before and what with getting to bed late and waking up with a killer headache. I just couldn't manage my Miracle Morning 

Day 10

Had a good start to the morning but got quite angry with something on the way to work.  Got in nice and early but feeling quite pressured t work today and yesterday. 

Felt quite unwell on the way home. Got a bit cross with Thomas and Monica so went upstairs to stop things from getting worse. Really enjoyed laying in the quiet. 

The kids got washed and in their night clothes without more yelling and they both came in to see me to give me hugs and kisses.  

Went down for dinner and felt a lot better after I'd had something to eat. Not a great day though really. 

Tomorrow should be better though and I'm going to our awards party tomorrow night do I hope that will be fun. 

Today I am grateful for

Getting back into CB plans

YouTube channel

Cb radio blog doing well

Kisses from Tom and Nancy

Monica being quite caring tonight